Me and my husband
This is the love of my life and I just feel like sharing that with everyone. Things have not always been easy nor do I think things will be perfect in the future. Marriage to me is learning to work together and compromise for someone elses feelings sometimes. This next year is going to be rough but I want both of us to always remember the moment we were sealed and how happy and in love we were. That was a big step for us and I couldn't be happier that we made it. Joshua is my other half, he is an amazing man and anyone who has him in their life is blessed but especially me. He has helped me become who I am today and he helps me get to the woman I strive to be. We work together and trust that Heavenly Father has a plan for us. xoxo
My boys...
These two little angels are my loves. They make me laugh when I dont want to and make me cry when they dont mean to. Motherhood isn't easy but it is the greatest joy a woman can have. I love how my boys love me. Even though Micah is going through his terrible twos right now, when he is sweet he is so sweet it almost makes you forget about the other stuff. He is learning more words and talking so much more now, sometimes a blessing, sometimes not! He loves his little brother and doesn't like doing things without him. Tristian is getting close to walking and its crazy that he is going to be a year old in August. Time has gone by to fast. He is totally a mommas boy and I love it. He loves cuddling and kissin' mommy. He gives Micah a run for his money and he looks up to him so much. I hope these two grow to great brothers and great friends. I love them so much!
So my husband's deployment is coming up and I am completely dreading it. I don't handle sadness very well at all and part of me is scared that I wont be able to keep myself together for the boys. I know Micah is going to have a very rough time with it and I worry about him adjusting. Tristian is so young but I know that he will realize that daddy isn't around and it's going to break my heart. The plans on when we are going to Ohio have changed so many times because the military has to wait until the last minute to make up their minds on anything. Its really annoying. A lot of other military wives keep telling me it will be alright and I have to be strong so that he won't worry about me and blah blah blah...that is not who I am. I am the wife who is going to worry and be sad so STOP telling me its all going to be alright. My life and my son's lives are about to be turned upside down, that is not alright. I am just telling the trust, I am going to be as strong as I can and try and rely on Heavenly Father but he is still here and I am already freaking out. I leave in July, well at least that is the plan right now. That is not very far away and it is going to be here faster than I want it to. I love my husband very much, he is an amazing husband and father and he will be missed more than he knows. I am so proud of him and everything he does for our family. I just hope that the time we are apart goes quickly so we can be together again.
